the ride

i'm starting to realize that organizing this action feels like a big ole analog to doing the event itself. there's the initial thrill of deciding to do it, as there always sort of is with deciding to organize any kind of major action or performance. there's the basic conceptual groundwork followed by the necessary pragmatic considerations. there's the assembling of all of the participating folks and the intricacy of those conversations. there's the momentum and excitement of the thing having its own momentum. then there's the continuous plodding on when the thing starts to be fall apart, or appear meaningless. i'm a little bit in this last feeling at the moment, but i know that that will pass. my metaphor driven mind can't help but make a link here between this continuous work and the reality of living with any kind of ongoing, chronic condition. obviously there is a huge difference in that foi 2008 has a clear destination and an ending point. i applaud all of the people who don't have the luxury of that endpoint.

i'm a little worried that this constant buzzing of organization is starting to distract me from the intentions of the action and also from any real mental/physical preparations that i need to seriously think about in relationship to doing foi again with my own body. i remember speaking to a class last year at the new school about getting a show together and one of the first things that came out of my mouth, unscripted and unplanned, was "i find that often the first thing that disappears in the process of making a piece is the process." i heard myself say that and was completely wigged out. those poor college kids, they didn't really know what to do with my real time verbal therapy.

anyway, it will be interesting to see how this all pans out.

i've been in contact with a friend of mine about the possibility of live video web streaming of foi 2008... i'm waiting to hear what she says but i'm open to anyone's ideas about it.